sorry I haven’t been around, I moved flats and am waiting for internet still. currently I’m relying on short spurts on my phone.
sometimes i think academy era mckirk is the only thing i truly care about
NO ITS TOO EARLY IN THE MORNING FOR ANGS-
wait what am I saying this perfect
Imagine how people can tell that something is wrong with the ‘mad doctor’ that sits swayingly and completely off his head on alcohol because he’s talking to the empty space next to him, wild eyed and a little more than terrified but they decide to leave him be; they’re listening to his story and it sounds like maybe the guy has cracked but at least he ain’t no harm, right?
But things change around the academy, Nyota pays special attention to the guy whose name she’s found out is Leonard McCoy and is a veritable Medical Genius. She first thought that maybe she could help him, in what way she wasn’t exactly sure but then-then she sees him, clean-shaven and sharply dressed in regulation reds and he’s-he’s smiling, standing in front of the medical dorms and talking to thin air and-and Nyota just doesn’t have the heart, because she remembers when she came onto the shuttle and this terrified man tried to shut himself into the loos only to be dragged out.
At least he’s happy right? She rationalizes, but resolves to keep on eye him, just in case.
But then comes the Narada, and she’s fucking petrified from her head to her toes because Spock is worried though he isn’t telling her and it breaks her heart because Spock is just so strong and he feels far more than anybody would think. but she knows the distinction between personal and duty and gets on with it, but then-
Her heart starts to pound because there is Leonard; and her first thought is; oh no, because he’s chasing nothing with a hypospray and his eyes are wild but his actions-his actions are so tender and Nyota wonders when he started to fall in love.
Then, then it’s all over and they’re left adrift with Vulcan decimated and how Earth to go back too.
But Leonard still talks to the space besides him and Nyota wonders, seeing how he stares with such awe, whether he’ll ever realize.
(It’ll happen in the kind of way; she’s never seen him that broken)
Bones: I think I can work some magic on your missile.
#I JUST FUCKING REALIZED#think about it: Carol’s a woman#anatomically speaking#she doesn’t HAVE a missle#when kirk says ‘you’re not down there to flirt’#Bones says ‘okay’#’I won’t flirt’#’at least’#’not with Carol’#and then proceeds to start flirting with Jim instead#AND SULU FUCKING KNOWS IT#LOOK AT HIS FACE (via toboldlyhella)
but you know that the first time jim kirk ever saw a starship launch from earth, he was pressed as close to the holoscreen as he could, nose smushed against it and fingers leaving dirty marks and his “i wanna go into space mummy,” is so awed it brings winona almost to tears